the darkness falls in the lighthouse park

Episode 19, season 1 will always have an eternal place in my heart forever and ever. It was my really first fully watched the X files episode, in Polish t.v. aired on september the 2nd, 1996. 8:10 p.m. local time ^^.

It was the first day of school, sad and _IGP2163happy at once, you know, as all first days of school are.
You can feel sadness of the lost freedom of summer but inside you also feel you did miss the school structures with all their tints of fascination, hate, love.
I didn’t have good relations with kids in the class but I had one friend who was always like a lost twin sister born in other family.  Since the very beginning of our friendship we liked creating own enchanted worlds and it was our power against the ordinary kids in the class. After the holiday it turned out things were not going to be different during this school year. All girls in the class had crush on guys from Backstreet Boys or Kelly Familly.  If  some class mates watched the-X files it was for them just one of many tv-series they liked, nothing intimate.
We were fully engaged in our x files love. We the x files filming locations, Canada, Vancouver, season 1, the darkness fallsgot toy cap guns and started two main investigations. Case X-01 about the strange night lights flying above the hill near graveyard and the case X-02 about our new teacher who seemed to be a vampire (at least: she was hidding something). We were ready to put our life on risk to find the truth, same like Mulder and Scully were doing ♥.
Old good naive times without internet, telephones, apps, tumblr, facebook et cetera. Sometimes (like today) when I have to get up early because of a visit in the health _IGP2172centre in my neighbourhood
I like imagining I’m still in 5th grade and that I’m going to school in the rain or in falling snow and that there’re mystries waiting for me to be solved.
I don’t know how about you but I never wanted to grow up. Now I see I was completely right. I wonder what do now these kids think who at age 10 wanted to be 18, have a car, boyfriend, work and stuff like that. I was trying to stay a child as long as possible, actually even now, I don’t buy that whole “adult’s crap”._IGP2173

Oh boy, I was supposed to write about the x-files…
As always I found various tips where “The darkness falls” was filmed, among them Seymour Forest and Lighthouse Park. Believe me, two years ago it was like walking among shadows.
The area in the Lighthouse Park looked very convincing. The same high trees from the family: pinaceae, huge ferns and wooden huts.  It looked like a deep thick forest somewhere far in the North. It was just hard to believe that several steps away there was a rocky seashore and this ⇒_IGP2176
the real lighthouse like from a sweet scandinavian fairy tale, not from a gloomy forest.
As a child I was pretty well scared after watching “The darkness falls” and I even promised to myself “to never watch any x files episode again!” but the next morning, in the daylight, it was fun to share thoughts with my friend about every single minute of the show and every next time it was less scary (exept the episode about that white humanoid monster crawling in the sewege system, I don’t remember the episode’s title… and it’s good I don’t remember…).
What else did remain from this trip to these sentiments around e: 19, s: 01 ? For example these two little cones._IGP2365




66 Exeter Street

What when one city can contain the whole United States, all Mulder’s and Scully’s destinations ? It’s like a glass ball with the universe closed inside. When you shake it the stardust begins dancing.

How to explain the mysterious feeling “Squeeze”, since the very beginning has been awaking in me – I don’t know. Exteter street must be light blue, foggy as the 30’s are every time I close my eyes. And perhaps, me aswell in the previous life, living in a tenement somewhere in North America, among the first skyscrapers, coming to life blues music and with a murder mystery behind.
The episode opening scene, an urban scenery during the golden hour of sunset, with a waterpond on the foreground and modern buildings on the distance were filmed from the area around the Main Street station. Once, when I desperately wanted to escape from the poor EastVan I went to take a look at a small narrow room for 600 bucks a month, where was no space for a proper table or shelves and only a wooden bed could fit in, but there’re was something instead these everyday facilities: one wall was completely replaced with windows so at night and during the day, from the 16th or 19th floor you could see the whole city under your feet, as in the ‘Squeeze’ first scene.

Eugene Tooms’ tenement (the external filming location) and the whole mystery of the name Baltimore and Exeter street finds its embodiment on W Hastings 51, 52. Hastings street is quite long and its Eastern part was close to my place on East 26th avenue.
-Dear sister! Guess what! Tooms is my neighbor!
-Please, make sure you have closed all vents and back doors well.
-Fortunately we don’t have a fire place.

Nevertheless Eugene Tooms isn’t my neighbor.
The house number 51 is located on a far part of Hastings at the crossroad with Abott street and however it’s just few steps away from bold Vancouver Downtown, it’s not a happy place. The closer you walk to the point where East & West Hastings come together the more homeless people you see. I was probably warned not to walk there but it’s a bright day and the streets are full of cars and ordinary people so I hold my bag tighter and decide to keep walking.
Although I grew up in a not so rich part of the planet the scenery of Hastings falls deep into my heart. Even at this moment I feel the whole of that sadness.
Mostly these people won’t hurt you. Some of them are begging, the other ones living their own lives, sleeping in their wheelchairs, chatting with fellows, arguing about something with imaginary enemies. Once I saw a happy someone: a toothless old man smiling while hugging his dog… so everytime I was walking through Hastings I was looking around to see him again, an evidence that love between a human being and an animal exists regardless of place where you live and the person who you are.  But I haven’t seen him anymore, only that one time.

ex.04It’s not easy to recognize Toom’s house. Several years ago the building has been renovated and lost completely its abandoned, haunted look.
The old picture you can see here: Tooms’ apartement season I

Fortunatelly the back alley has saved more of the creepy atmosphere. The walls are stiil a little bit dirty and old looking. Although it’s a sunny afternoon and not a foggy night, you feel it’s wiser not to stay there for too long.

exeter01I decided not to visit the Noodle House 🙂  because I doubted if anyone would let me in.
It’s also pretty impossible that the interior is being kept i20140725_143816n the same ruined state as it was in 1993. Another filming location is the building where Usher were killed. In the garage where Mulder and Scully catch Tooms for the first time, on a red wall behind Mulder  you can see an arrow pointing the direction of Columbia Street.
This is a real existing place in Vancouver.  A lot of building near Toom’s tenement radiate the same dark, mysterious sadness of 30’s.

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3 wrzesnia (14) a little bed time gossip:  when Scully comes home (before she will be trying to take
that unlucky bath) we can see the building on Jarvis street which was her Washington’s home filming location. 20140725_142838It’s interesting if we realize this scene must be still in Baltimore if Tooms comes to attack her.


small little tin box

What one year ago we didn’t dare to wish for today is reality. The most real of the most real ones.

I should be happy. But the unrest is growing in me. I lost control of something.

In these times when it objectively didn’t exist anymore it all could be mine. A small little biscuit tin filled with souvenirs.

I could slip through a narrow chink (a fissure inside a diamond) like a thief. Secretly take over the reminiscences and create possibilities, my very own milky ways.

But things don’t happen like that (in a snap of the fingers.)

They returned too late or too soon.